i don't know what to do, 'cause i don't have a clue.

im not fine today.. or maybe im just a little unwell.
i cried yesterday. i dont know how long could i be able to keep that little secret. only me and someone close to my heart knows that we know about it. about that thing they never told us even before i was born. my parents and a few knew about it. .and hide it. .and i know for certain that they are not going to reveal it. a long forgotten past, w/c nobody would bother to remember or would even try to talk about.
im lucky to know the truth, but it hurts me a lot. i wish i never knew it.. because i cannot take it away from my memory. everytime i remember about it, i cant help myself but felt that bitterness,..i think i have said so much. i made a promise not talk about it and not to tell it to anyone., and im not breaking my promise. its a secret that should be kept, not revealed. even if it makes me sad, i'll keep quiet for the better.
im just doing what i know is right. i dont want to hurt somebody's feeling. and i dont have the right and the strength to do it. only time can heal the wounds, but the scar will still remain. life isn't always fair.